If you’ve opened up this post, you might have a few different thing going through your mind, such as: Why is she quitting, or, she hasn’t been on here in forever anyways, I thought this was already done. Both of these are accurate responses and I’m about to be completely honest with you.
When I first wanted to start a blog it was because of how much I loved writing. . . because I thoroughly enjoyed putting down my thoughts and ideas and giving them to the world to see. Except that’s not quit what happened when I started blogging. What ended up being something that I loved and wanted to do so badly, started to feel like something that I was trying to force. Let’s be honest here, when is anything that is forced really enjoyable anymore? Well, for me it’s hardly ever. If I feel forced to do something then it’s no longer a creative outlet for me, it’s not longer enjoyable. I need to do it because I truly want to do it.
Now, it’s not that committing to putting out posts every week was difficult or even that it’s what made me feel forced. No, it was this idea that I had to fit into a specific category. In order to be a writer I had always heard that I need to find a niche or I need to find something specific to talk about and make my entire presence around that. So, I listened and I picked a topic that I love: travel. However, instead of enjoying writing about traveling all of the time, I found myself not enjoying what I was writing about and not being able to commit to putting posts out 2 or 3 times a week. Instead, I found myself making excuses for why I hadn’t put anything out. These excuses sounded something like: Oh, well we haven’t been doing anything lately, or this isn’t interesting enough, or I’ve been too busy. Spoiler: none of this was true! We were still doing stuff that I’m sure was still interesting and I definitely wasn’t too busy.
This lead me to a journey of figuring out why I couldn’t get myself to do the one thing that I used to love so much. . . which was to write. Over the time I have come to realize that it’s because I allowed a voice inside of my head that was created by Societal and Media Standards, shove me into a box of what I had to be. By forcing myself to be one thing, a travel blogger, I blocked out all of the love and creativity that I had for writing and for life.
So now I’m here to tell you that I won’t be doing that any longer. Instead, I will be here to write for my own creative outlet. You heard that right, I’m not going anywhere, in fact I’m back for good! This blog will be filled with whatever I feel like saying, it will be honest, it will be raw, and it will be authentically me. And yes, there will still be some travel stuff. If you’re not into that and you want to read about one single topic 2 or 3 times a week, that’s okay, I completely get it, but you won’t find that here. I would hate to see you leave, but I’m also not going to let myself or outside forces determine what I can and cannot write or who I can and cannot be. To be honest, I want this to be a place for you, a place that you can come to and know that you don’t have to be anything that you’re not, you are who you’re supposed to be and that’s all that you should be. Most importantly though, I’m making this change for myself, so that I can be who I am supposed to be.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, another post will be up this week. 🙂